Liz's Journal

rant rant rant

2007-01-09T04:40:57Z

my sister makes me so mad. sometimes i feel if she took it one step further i would just punch her in the face. seriously. i hate her. whenever i get mad i would be scared to hit someone because i would never want to hurt them, but i want to hurt her. she's so horrible she cares about no one but herself and what she wants. she's such a stupid bitch and she is the only one i don't try and be nice to. i can't stand living with her i just want her to get out. even my dad doesn't want to live with her. i can't stand her i can't stand her.
i'm GIVING her my ipod shuffle, the little one. and she's putting her music on it. so it's almost midnight and i'm already asleep. she wakes me up screaming about how she can't put music on it. my door is locked to hide the keys to my car from her so she can't drive it in the middle of the night because she's crazy. she breaks up the door asking how she can put music on it and where the thing is. i tell her to leave me alone and i'll do it in the morning because i just went to sleep. she finds the thing but she is still yelling so i start screaming for her to get out my room. she isn't leaving so i get out to kick her out and she like attacks me because she is a fucking psycho. but seriously if she came back her right now i feel like i would just want to beat the shit out of her.
i never have felt this much hate before. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh i just can't stand her. she's such a bitch. there is no reason she needed the connector for the ipod that i'm nice enough to give to her. and she's crazy. and she's a bitch. and she needs to get out she's fucking 20 and she has to a job but she still has to borrow money from me. she sucks at life.

xcrazyperson @ 2006-12-11T18:15:00

2006-12-11T22:15:22Z

The Nintendo Wii is the best game system ever. I would be playing it this second but Alex borrowed it from me.
Alex and I got into a fight. We might break up...I don't know it's his decision.
That's a pretty serious entry.

haha

2006-09-26T03:15:15Z

the Helper

Thanks for taking the test !

you chose CX - your Enneagram type is TWO.

"I must help others"

Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's
needs.

How to Get Along with Me

Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.

Share fun times with me.

Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus
on yours.

Let me know that I am important and special to you.

Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.

In Intimate Relationships

Reassure me that I am interesting to you.

Reassure me often that you love me.

Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.

What I Like About Being a Two

being able to relate easily to people and to make friends

knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better

being generous, caring, and warm

being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings

being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor

What's Hard About Being a Two

not being able to say no

having low self-esteem

feeling drained from overdoing for others

not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish

criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should

being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to
them

working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real
feelings

Twos as Children Often

are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism

try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding

are outwardly compliant

are popular or try to be popular with other children

act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention

are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Twos), or quiet and shy
(the more introverted Twos)

Twos as Parents

are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm
and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)

are often playful with their children

wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?"

"Have I caused irreparable damage?"

can become fiercely protective

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy

Discover the 9 Types of People

Harper
SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

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You are not completely happy with the result?!

You chose CX

Would you rather have chosen:

AX (SEVEN)

BX (NINE)

CY (SIX)

CZ (ONE)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on ABC
You scored higher than 99% on XYZ

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xcrazyperson @ 2006-09-05T22:49:00

2006-09-06T02:51:17Z

health club thursday
there will be bananas/strawberries
with peanut butter
and nutella!
so that means you should come :)
i did so good tonight at work...usually on a weekday where i dont work long i make like 20-30 but tonight i made like 50 it was crazy...one table of 2 left me $12 and another left me $20! and then one table left me $4 but it was two $2 bills! insane! i was happy
im glad no work tomorrow its my day off

i like fruits and veggies

2006-08-17T19:06:06Z

it seems like normally i write very late at night, but it's the middle of the day now and i feel like updating.
one hour until i leave for work. i like work, i make money. after every night i'm like sweet i got some cash and then i'm either like "oh wait, i have to get some gas" or "oh no, i i owe so-and-so money" and then there goes my money. sigh. hopefully a lot of ppl will come in tonight so i can get a lot of tips. i like being a waitress.
i bought a metal ddr platform. it cost a lot. i think it's supposed to arrive tomorrow, i'm super excited. natalie and i are gonna have a ddr party. someone is gonna have to use a crappy mat lol. i have one cruddy plastic one and a nicer one that's like ripped up lol so i need this metal one. then i'm gonna start playing all the time. all the time.
if i lived by jamba juice, that would be all i'd eat. smoothies for every meal of the day. that would be nice.

xcrazyperson @ 2006-08-07T23:59:00

2006-08-08T04:00:04Z

i went to belize, it was amazing.
if i described everything that happened it would take too long.
nature is awesome.
i didnt get a tan. sigh.

xcrazyperson @ 2006-07-10T22:08:00

2006-07-11T02:09:36Z

Your mom's so fat she uses sleeping bags as socks.

Lmao.

xcrazyperson @ 2006-07-06T10:45:00

2006-07-06T14:46:55Z

does anyone wear a size 5.5 in women's/3.5 in men's? i have an extra pair of black converse shoes...
i don't wanna do summer reading. i hate books. i hate doing work. ugh. but eventually i will do it, it will suck, and the grade i get will suck. sigh.

i havent updated in about three months

2006-06-27T03:07:08Z

i work at Ihop in rockville. i'd rather work at whole foods because it would be way cooler, but my sister works at Ihop and got me a job there and she would be mad if i didn't work there.
i have been vegan since may 28. it actually hasn't been hard. i've been eating a lot of bread and jamba juice smoothies that don't have dairy.
i've been trying to run every day but some days i get lazy. i did it like four days last week but this weekend i've been lazy. i think i'll go tomorrow morning though before i go to work. but it might be raining too hard. too bad i can't exercise at home because there is like nothing to do. sigh.
i haven't started my summer reading and i don't want to.

xcrazyperson @ 2006-03-17T18:08:00

2006-03-17T23:08:48Z

i got my license! finally!

argh

2006-03-12T17:14:36Z

You Should Weigh 120

If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight.
If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!

How Much Do You Weigh?

Haha! I wish! Sike I'm a fatty and I never lose weight. It lies; if you eat healthy and exercise you can still be a fatty!

Man I have to do this stupid crap for a science lab where I have to research a capacitor...then define the variables for my experiment. I still don't know what a capacitor is! I'll have to call Melanie and see what she knows...because she's my partner.

xcrazyperson @ 2006-03-05T18:08:00

2006-03-05T23:08:44Z

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Your personality type is SLOAI

You are social, moderately moody, moderately organized, accommodating, and moderately intellectual, and may prefer a city which matches those traits.

The largest representation of your personality type can be found in the these U.S. cities: Salt Lake City, Oklahoma City, Nashville, Tucson, Phoenix, Memphis, W. Palm Beach, Portland/Salem, Louisville, Cincinnati, San Diego, Los Angeles Area and these international countries/regions Ukraine, South Africa, Greece, Indonesia, Austria, Thailand, Turkey, Philippines, Puerto Rico, Malaysia, Portugal, Japan, Czech Republic, Guam

What Places In The World Match Your Personality?
City Reviews at CityCulture.org

I'm moderately everything; I have no personality.

i am a phobic neat freak...great

2006-03-03T20:17:25Z

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	53%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|	26%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|	16%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Hedonism	\|\|	10%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|	16%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	37%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%

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Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

trait snapshot:
neat freak, organized, worrying, phobic, fears the unknown, irritable, pessimistic, emotionally sensitive, fears chaos, risk averse, fragile, unadventurous, depressed, frequently second guesses self, likes to fit in, does not like to stand out, perfectionist, hard working, does not like to be alone, clingy, dependent, practical, ordinary, cautious, takes precautions, good at saving money, suspicious, heart over mind, busy, altruistic

an update? from me?

2006-02-27T21:26:58Z

School is so annoying! I can't decide what classes to take and I still have to take a stupid tech credit! I just want to get into a good college. I don't really want to take all those AP classes, I just want the college credit and I want for it to look good. I don't even want to school. College will be so much better. If I make it into Columbia, my life will be made.

I made plans and I forgot about all of them.

xcrazyperson @ 2006-01-11T23:27:00

2006-01-12T04:30:42Z

I want to stop using the computer, but it always gives me something to do.

I want to stop being lazy, but it's easier to be lazy.

I wish I weren't so curious, but I can't help it.

I wish I were better at life, but my attempts aren't helping much.

Serious entries fail...JK I'M NOT BEING SERIOUS guys...except I am. Oh well...

I take my driving test on Friday (the 13th). I hope I pass.

xcrazyperson @ 2005-12-31T00:08:00

2005-12-31T05:12:56Z

my problem is that i hate myself. i can't stand myself and i'd like to change everything about me. the way i look, the way i act.
i wanna live in new york where i can walk everywhere and live by myself, and have complete control over my own life. jamba juice will be 30 blocks away, a job across the street, a gym on campus, a walk to central park when i have the time. THAT IS MY DREAM.
right now i am stuck at home, bored to death. i never do anything during the day, i don't walk anywhere because i will either see people i know or i have no where to go. i don't wanna walk to safeway, i don't wanna be the only one walking on the sidewalks. nothing to do, nowhere to go. can't drive so i can't go anywhere fun.
i hate it. i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it. the real problem will never go away, even if i lived in new york and had my dream.

xcrazyperson @ 2005-12-23T17:38:00

2005-12-23T22:39:03Z

I am worth $1,901,640 on HumanForSale.com

I don't know what I'd compare that to...

xcrazyperson @ 2005-12-11T22:01:00

2005-12-12T03:04:57Z

christmas is coming soon! i'm struggling with buying presents, i have only bought my mom's and i'm already out of money. i have to buy my bro something and alex something. my dad says he doesn't want anything (he doesn't celebrate christmas) and i'm not buying my sister anything. maybe she'll get sad and move out and never come back! that would be nice. i think while i'm sleeping she's gonna take all my stuff because we got in a fight. oh well. i locked my door but she knows how to undo it from the outside. i'm a little scared.
so anyways. i had some friends over today; it was fun. i did some homework after. i'm still not done. i had less than i thought though, and i'm so glad we had off friday. i hope we got off tomorrow because i could use some more sleep. that was the first time in a while i've gotten more than like 6 hours of sleep. on friday i sleep till 1 and i felt so good when i woke up.
well i gotta do modern world homework, and then i'll sleep. i have no clue why i just randomly updated. :) happy holidays guys.

xcrazyperson @ 2005-11-13T22:06:00

2005-11-14T03:07:35Z

Liz took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Longs for a tender and sympathetic bond and for a ..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

Pretty much all of that was true except the satisfying desires through sexual activity. Well actually, by sexual activity if oyu mean kissing, then it could all be true.

Chyeah.

Homework is so dumb.

xcrazyperson @ 2005-10-22T00:00:00

2005-10-22T04:00:52Z

The Sonnet
Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDf)

Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?

Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.

Your exact opposite:
Genghis Khunt

Random Brutal Sex Master

Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.

You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.

ALWAYS AVOID: The 5-Night Stand, The False Messiah, The Hornivore, The Last Man on Earth

CONSIDER: The Loverboy

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: law2114

That's different than I got last time, and the time before that (which were the same). Sounds good.

blah it's late and this sucks

2005-10-18T03:17:27Z

I don't know why I'm updating.

I need a best friend. I just need friends.

Waaaaaaaaa I feel sad. I'm such an idiot.

I'm just rambling but I know I can't say anything people would care about, or do anything about, or even read. I just feel sad and have to tell somebody, and since I don't have friends I can call, I'll tell my computer.

I can't tell my boyfriend because it's about him. I'm talking to him and it's not helping but his cousin is. I just like hearing he's an idiot and I'm awesome.

I wanna go to sleep but I know I can't.

xcrazyperson @ 2005-10-12T15:51:00

2005-10-12T19:52:27Z

Girl Next Door
You scored 81 looks, 86 personality, 32 politics, and 31 sex drive!

You're nice and you have a great personality, but a lower sex drive than most, or you've never had sex (which I commend you for). You appear to be a Democrat or something resembling one. You'd be a great girlfriend, and maybe a great soulmate someday. Sex drive isn't as important as many people would have you think, plus when you get married it usually opens up a bit. Just find the right person for you (if you haven't already) and live out your life.

Don't Forget to Take My Other 2 Tests

The Music (Rock That Is) Test

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The One Question Test

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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 78% on Appearance

You scored higher than 93% on Personality

You scored higher than 65% on Beliefs

You scored higher than 6% on Sexuality

Link: The What Kind of Girl are You Test written by ramonaaronperez on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

ESFP - The Performer
You scored 63% I to E, 52% N to S, 14% F to T, and 63% J to P!

Your type is called the performer, and you very much feel "all the world's a stage". Your type is part of a larger category called experiencers or artisans. You are playful and funloving, and wish to help all those around you lighten up. You radiate warmth and optimism. Your motto is "eat, drink, and be merry". You share your type with over 10% of the population. You don't like to be alone - ever, if possible. You are always up on what is new and hot.
As a romantic partner, you are fun and affectionate, leading an active life full of friends. You are naturually happy-go-lucky and supportive of your partner. You dislike confrontation, and will avoid conflict discussion at all costs. You tend to let things go, hoping they go away on their own. You feel most appreciated when your partner is affectionate and acknowledges the good deeds you do, but doesn't make a particularly big deal out of them.
Your group summary: Experiencers (sp)<
Your Type Summary: ESFP

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 75% on I to E

You scored higher than 68% on N to S

You scored higher than 6% on F to T

You scored higher than 69% on J to P

Link: The LONG Scientific Personality Test written by unpretentious2 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

THAT IS EXACTLY LIKE ME! It's pretty amazing.

INFJ - The Counselor
You scored 50 I versus E, 20 N versus S, 20 F versus T, and 60 J versus P!

Your ideal romantic partner is known as the counselor. This type makes a supportive and insightful romantic partner, encouraging their mates to have dreams and work hard to make those dreams come true. Because they are so creative, they have a wealth of ideas to help them toward those goals. They need harmony so much that they are driven to resolve conflict quickly, as long as the terms don't violate their strong ethics. They feel the most appreciated when their partners admire their creativity, trust their inspirations, and respect their values. It is also vitally important that their partners be open and emotionally available - in other words, that they be willing to share themselves completely.
The group summary: idealists (NF)
The type summary: INFJ

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 27% on I versus E

You scored higher than 10% on N versus S

You scored higher than 2% on F versus T

You scored higher than 35% on J versus P

Link: The Best Personality Type for You Test written by unpretentious2 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Hey that's exactly what I want! Pretty sweet.

I'm so tired! There's no school tomorrow; it's time to celebrate.

xcrazyperson @ 2005-10-02T00:05:00

2005-10-02T04:15:50Z

(It's because we're cool)

EXTREMELY Humble
28% mind-love and 18% body-love!

That's right! You are extremely humble! In my opinion, humility is a great virtue. Regardless of the true state of your mind and body, you don't consider yourself superior to others. Even if you are.

Humble individuals are most likely to recongnize flaws in themselves and therefore are best equipped for improvement. Have you noticed that when you're not good at something you work at it?

The smiley face in the below graph indicates where you lie, in a 2-D measure of self-love. I'm continually adjusting the cutoffs. What this means: a "normal" says you really are around the average, and a "cocky" says you really are cockier than most other people. Based on some real-world testing, I have some final advice:

don't date someone if your squares are not sharing an edge or corner.
friendships more than 2 squares away probably aren't healthy.

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 1% on mind

You scored higher than 1% on body

Link: The How Much Do You Love Yourself Test written by chicken_pot_pie on Ok Cupid

The perfect human.
25 Cruelty, 41 Anal, 46 Pushover

Congratulations. You're easy-going, friendly and know when to stand up for yourself. You're perfect. In fact, you're a little bit too perfect. Chances are, hoards of jealous people are plotting your demise at you read this. Tough luck, pal.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 54% on Cruelty

You scored higher than 68% on Anal

You scored higher than 96% on Pushover

Link: The Why Do People Hate You? Test written by sofia__m on Ok Cupid

I thought I was going to get pushover, but I just scored really low on cruely. I thought all the mean jokes were funny though. Haha.

xcrazyperson @ 2005-09-26T18:19:00

2005-09-26T22:20:20Z

Sometimes I wish my sister would die.
Then I feel kinda bad. Then I wish she would feel bad.
I wish she would just move out, move away. Move to the middle of the ocean and she can never find her way back.

xcrazyperson @ 2005-09-23T23:52:00

2005-09-24T03:56:20Z

You are a
Social Moderate
(41% permissive)

and an...
Economic Liberal
(18% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Democrat

Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid

I'm kind of surprised, with the social moderate part, not the liberal part. It's probably because I never like to put strongly agree or disagree. On the thingy where it matches me with famous people, I was getting kind of close to Hitler and totalitarian views. Scary.

p.s. go democrats!
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p.p.p.s yes i know this isn't a letter and i stopped using good/okay grammar